The Fucking Kettle was created in 2005 for my Fine Art Degree. Inspired by careless, hurtful remarks made by a Health Provider that quite frankly should have known better! The offer of a ‘Kettle’ when I lay there on my bed settee after my whole world had fallen apart and I was totally dependent on family was a bloody insult. Those words stayed with me, in my head for the next 3 years. Finally after getting fairly used to my diagnosis and having to learn to live again, to walk again, I managed to complete a Fine Art Degree, one of my goals that I had set as kept trying to look towards the future but wasn’t really sure how much I would be allowed as I had just scraped through this last time and just hoped that focusing on this would be beneficial.picture-139My first project brief on my degree was ‘Autobiography’ I sat staring at the blank sheet of paper. Where could I start, I mean I was nearly 40 so there was a lot of ‘stuff!!!’ My tutor said he’d give me another 10 minutes and I really needed to write a heading on this piece of paper?

As he walked away, I knew now that this was where life was really going to change, I had met lots of my fellow students on the previous course and hadn’t divulged my status, I had wanted too, but never knew ‘how’ and now ‘the cat would be out of the bag’ and could change Peoples reactions to me?

I went ahead and wrote in very big, bold lettering ‘A FUCKING KETTLE!!!’ My tutor returned and I then disclosed to him about my title and my status. It did get easier after that initial jump into the unknown. Luckily, people didn’t treat me any different and asked about my condition in which I was happy to respond.

The Kettle is adorned with Jewels, there is a small ‘Lion’ on the back, a symbol of quality and strength and me (a Leo). Hand made HIV Medication spills out over the cup and saucer, days of the week are written on each individual tablet. This was my first HIV Combination of Elfiravenz (Sustiva) the yellowy one and Combivir the white one. Colourful skulls are like jewels hidden amongst the chaos.

These were my first representations of my medication and very naive in the making, I still make my own and use in other work but they have evolved as has my drug regime since 2002.

‘You say, you will repay me with a kettle, then I’ll have one out of jewels and precious metal’

 

I never did get that kettle, and had to provide this one myself!!!

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